I Tell Myself that I want to Die ( Ironic title sort of )

I Tell Myself that I want to Die

Sometimes I think to myself,
I feel frustrated and I say to myself,
in my minds eye that I want to die

It’s an expression of frustration
It’s not meant as a literal conception
Death will come soon enough in our lives.
Why hasten the date of our demise?

I want to be young and healthy and thrive.
I have to be happy energetic and alive.
Frustration sets in and I don’t want to die
But I tell myself that
in an expression contrived
To express what I feel
And the passion inside.

I tell myself that I want to die.

Perhaps it’s a sign of mental decline
Of illness or a scar from another time
But seasons have changed
And my mind rearranged

And the depth of frustration has faded.

So I don’t really feel so inclined.
Yet I say that I want to subside.

About Walter

I am an administrative assistant, a musician, and I have a technical diploma in web design from matc dec' 2012.
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